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| ah, and so another year has come and gone.
so much as happened, something which goes without saying. my life from a half a year ago seems like a lifetime ago, and so much has happened in the recent past that it seems like it's lasted a very long time. but still, it has only been a year that's passed--less than a year since my last post, and so much has changed since then!
change. i've talked to a lot of people about it recently, and this year has been full of it. relationships, friendships, family, death, life--so many things, so many people, so many lives have changed. and yet, that is necessary in life, is it not? the realization that change comes, the realization that we need to accept those changes, and the realization that those changes are life, are the realizations that lead us to learning that life is change. but it is in human nature to reject change, not to receive it with open arms. changes come with hurt feelings and fear, the greatest of which is the fear of the unknown, for change brings with it the uncertainty of the future we know now. or the future that we thought we knew.
i come back to TC, and i feel different from when i came back last winter. no doubt that's because the city's changed, my friends have changed, my family has changed, and i have changed. there is not one single factor that i can identify, but rather a web of interconnecting relationships and reasons for the change. and although i realize that change is a part of growing-up, a part of life, i don't like it. i don't like things that i can't control, and i don't like not knowing what things will be like. but as a friend quoted to me in a dark moment: "grant me the serenity to accept the things that i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference", i've realized that there are somethings that i cannot change, and i have accepted that--and perhaps it does not make me happy, but at least i've accepted it for what it is.
change brings progress. but progress, on rare occasions, may not be the best thing for ourselves. with the new year coming up, and this year coming to an end, there will be many changes to come. be they good or bad--well, we shall see.
a happy new year to all. and may the changes in the year to come be good ones.
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| listening to: moulin rouge - come what may
it's been a year since my last entry... and i know that it's obvious, but so many things have happened since then. in two weekends from now, last year, i visited berkeley for my first time--and so many things happened that weekend to shape and change my views on many things... not only the school, but my friends as well. funny to think, if i had never come up that weekend, i wouldn't have met a lot of people, many of whom i call my friends right now.
it feels like i've changed so much over the past year as well.
i remember that we used to joke in high school about how our lives would make a really good WB show. all the drama, humor, scandal, more drama--right in here in our lives. but honestly... in the past few months, i feel like i've been living in the same rut. it's been a fun, sometimes. it's been painful other times. but it just goes in a circle. i feel like peyton from one tree hill when she was in a realtionship with nathan--not going anywhere, but still stuck in it. so i decided to get out. for the time being at least.
i don't want to go back to the same circular rut though. i've finally climbed out. it's not fair to for me to fall back in, to walk in circles, only because i know what's going on, what's coming next. and of course i know what's going on... i've seen all the scenery before. when it was new, even the ugliest little hut looked cute, rustic. now it just looks ugly. i want to travel, see new places. i just can't walk the circle anymore. not that it wasn't fun, exciting, interesting.... but i need something more now. i'm not sorry for changing, not sorry for needing something different. but i am sorry if i've hurt people on the way. so, i'm sorry.
but then again, there are always some areas in which i haven't changed. for instance, i've decided to come back to xanga after a year because i'm putting my 8-10 page history paper off. sounds familiar, eh?
k bye.
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| i got this from della. i was bored, could you tell?
Supposedly if you've seen over 70 you have no life. Number the ones you've seen.
() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
() The Mexican
() Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
() Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 2
() The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstien
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
() Saw
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates (hahaha tiff and i during finals. with ono for lunch. =X)
() Jason X
Total: 6
() Scream
() Scream 2
() Scream 3
() Scary Movie
() Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
(x) American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
Total: 2
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
() Resident Evil I
() Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
() The Village
() Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total: 5
(x) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland (i slept through this on the plane to france. does that count?)
() 13 Ghosts
() Signs
() The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
() Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
Total: 4
() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story (I want to watch this. ME TOO DELLA !)
() Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events (good movie.)
() Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact (i think i have this movie... but i'm not sure if i've watched it?)
() KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers (circle of trust?)
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
Total: 4
()Cinderella Story (hilary duff? no thanks.)
() the Terminal (I thought it was gonna be really good, but it was depressing and only okay. I felt so bad for him.)
() the Lizzie McGuire Movie (o_O)
() Passport to Paris
() Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
() Final Destination
() Final Destination 2
() Halloween
() The Ring
Total: 0
() The Ring 2
(x) Harold & Kumar Go To Whitecastle (totally inappropriate. but funny. heh.)
() Practical magic
(x) Chicago (YAYYYYYYY. <3<3<3)
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
() Hellboy
(x) Secret Window (i saw.... 3/4 of this. does that count?)
() I Am Sam-
() The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 3
(x) The Day After Tomorrow (JAKE GYLLEHAAL. mmmmmm.)
() Child's Play
(x) Bride of Chucky (hahaha. "very good. for an amateur." i saw that in 8th grade... and that line stuck with me. don't ask.)
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You ("taming of the shrew"-based. <3)
() Just Married
() Gothika
() Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
() Coach Carter
() Bad Boys
Total: 3
( ) Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
(x) Se7en
(x) Oceans eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve (11 was better.)
(x) Bourne Identity
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator II
Total: 4
(x) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET (i have it on VHS. haha)
() Children of the Corn
() My Boss' daughter.
() Frailty
Total: 2
() Best Men
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (so outrageously funny.)
(x) She's All That
() Calendar girls
() Sideways (i wanted to see this.)
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China (?!)
Total: 3
(x)X-Men (i THINK i saw xmen. or else it was x-2. one or the other.)
() X-2
(x) Jeepers Creepers (i saw most of this on tv. kinda bad. )
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
() The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions (TIFF WE NEED TO MAKE RACHEL WATCH THIS.)
(x) The Hot Chick
Total: 6
() Swimfan
() Miracle
() Old School
(x) The Notebook (yay for mushy chick flicks. hahaha in the theaters with tiff and vince... and many older women.)
() K-Pax
() Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
() Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
()Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (i "saw" this at the bss halloween party two years ago but i wasn't really watching...)
(x) A Walk to Remember (good movie.)
() Boogeyman
Total: 2 (hah. they're both mushy chick flicks. <3)
() Hitch
() The Fifth Element
() Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
() Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi... (i think i saw this in quality care.... wayyyyyy back when...)
() Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
Total: 2
(x) Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
() Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music (YAY. another musical !!!)
() Parent Trap 1 (old)
(x) Parent Trap 2 (new)
() The Burbs
(x) The Terminator
Total: 4
() Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
() Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x)The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Red Dragon
() Sleepy Hollow
() I Heart Huckabees
() 24 Hour Party People
() Blood In Blood Out
() The Virgin Suicides
Total: 3
i got 55. considering that della got... what, 60 something? by counting ocean's 11 like 30 times... heh. what can i say? i watch movies on tv a lot. =)
xoxo.cherry. | | |
| what a weekend !!
first of all, i want to thank everyone that came and supported us by watching the musical. it was an awesome experience to be able to perform for all you guys and finally see the faces and hear the applause. =) it made all of those long rehearsals and late nights worth it... although i'm still catching up on those lost hours of sleep. i have to say, however, that this musical experience passed by really quickly though... maybe just because there was so much to do that three months still didn't seem like enough time to put it together, or just because it's my last one... and i wanted it to last longer. what am i ever going to do with my free nights now ?! besides... homework, of course. but yea, it was amazing--the show, yes, but also everyone (cast, pit, crew, production staff) that worked so hard to make it come together. and also, the audience who bought the tickets and laughed and clapped and cheered and gave us a sold out house to perform to, at least two bounce curtains each performance, and standing ovations every night/matinee. i feel that i'm not even beginning to express adequately how amazed i feel about doing the show and hearing the feedback and seeing people that i haven't seen for the longest time in the audience, and it all means so much to me. so, thank you.
and there's so much other stuff that's happened over this weekend, its hard to believe that it's only been three days.... well, four now. i'm sorry. | | |
| i think that the weekends seem short because i sleep through half of it. the thing is, i don't get enough time to do stuff that i need/want to do, but at the same time i need to sleep, since i don't do enough of it anyway.
so yes. this weekend has been quite interesting... karen moved into her own room, so now i have my own room !!! yes, i sound excited because it's the first time in my life that i've had a room all to myself. =) now i want to decorate. hah.
i think i need to babysit andre tmrw... we might go see curious george. that is one cute monkey. hahaha actually, i sorta want to see brokeback mountain... but i dont think that i should bring my brother to that movie. at least, not yet. maybe in like.. 15 years or so.
goodbye. cherry | | |
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